about him

hiya, long time no see :) been busy with school, work, addiction, and life. school was nice, i'm doing the whole night school thingy and i think i'm doing okay. i began my part-time job early this january, i work in this bookstore which is like, my dream job to be surrounded by books. but it turns out to be more exhausting than i ever imagine. huh. guess that's reality right? the addiction part... well let's say i take my liking to korean things very seriously. a little too much, some might say. but that's what keeps me from my other addiction, which is him. blah. i know it's a total cliche to talk about your ex and how you can't really be moving on and stuff. but i'm sure every girl went thru this phase of not moving on, and sorry if you have to go thru it again thru my perspective... this is crazy. i've been keeping myself busy so that i won't get a chance to actually let my imagination run off. but in every spare moment i can't help but think that he's the one, the good enough guy for me. the one that understands me most. the one that saw the dark side of me, and still love me even more. the one that i can do silent conversation with. the one that can read my moves. the one that were never meant for me. i'm letting go, i am. i'm open to other guys too. but every one came knocking, i ended up comparing them with him. it is true when he said he "mold" me to be what i am now. i'm really missing him right now. i swore that i would never write things like this but hey, human lick their own spit. life's been downhill but i'm pretty sure i'm gonna be on top again. just hope for the best, right? regards msd

about wasting talents

it's a bummer that one of my favorite artist died before i even saw her sing live...

compare the two videos

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ah... why waste such talent, such voice... RIP Amy

about gong yoo

hi!
i'm currently waiting for my final report presentation day so i have a lot of free time. actually i have to study a lot but i didn't get the vibe yet. i decided to rewatch "the 1st shop of coffee prince" again. i like the series sooooooo much, mostly because the ahjussi/sajangnim is so cute, i want a man like him....



hehe this is totally cheesy, me writing about some stars that i like. totally fangirl-ish. but so whaaaaaaaaaaaat i love himmmmmmmmmmmm

i like that type of body, the broad shoulder, muscle but not too much, enough to hug. Ya Allah, kalo berkenan, nanti suamiku yang model gitu yaaa... amin *quickwish*

his name is gong yoo, 31 y.o, and his current movie is titled "finding mr. destiny"



i don't know about his other works but i really liked him in the coffee prince series. hope u can watch it too :)

nitey world

MSD

PS: here's another picture. sorry, can't help it :p

about love song

hey, me again. haven't close my eyes yet, my mind is buzzing, or my tummy is?

i'm currently addicted to big bang's "love song"
u could watch the video and the lyrics translation here

i like the rap part by top and gd, the lyrics are sweeeeetttt

The warm rays of the sun are from another world
The field of reeds is dancing all alone
I remain still at a green hill
Holding a conversation I’ve yet to finish with her
The sky is of an expressionless faith holding no answers
You’re probably hiding behind the clouds
You’re probably a star

I close my eyes and feel your breath
I dream about you
A smile spreads across my lips
You’re breathing with me now
Time, please stop, don’t separate her and I
Wind, stop blowing, this is my last letter to you

the bold part, i like the way he said it.
ah i'm a total fan

the-currently-mesmerized-girl

MSD

about the naked kitchen

hi, it's 3.53 am now and i'm having trouble sleeping
the insomnia always came whenever i miss dinner.

so, in order to fill my time, i watched "the naked kitchen" again. it's not porn, regardless of the name hehe, it's a korean movie, starred by shin min ah, kim tae woo and ju ji hoon. its my... tenth time watching it :P there's a reason why i liked the movie so much

i always like a real stories, like how you could love two person simultaneously and the two person gradually became okay with that fact. for me it seems so mature, and yeah you might say that the person is selfish but hey, if you love 'em then you love 'em rite?




i guess it's unreal though. nobody's that nice. the fire of jealousy will surely eat u up. Ya Allah, semoga nanti suamiku sangat monogami, amin. *late night wish*

the reason why i like the movie... hmmm.. the house and everything on the set is cute. the female protagonist owns an umbrella shop, the designs is so... summer-ish, makes me want to lay around in the sun. both the male protagonist are chef so the way they served the food makes me want to try it soooo much.
and the sex scene in the museum is just amazing. i browsed it on youtube and find the video under the name "dazzled". the director is genius, he made it seem so sweet, and not dirty at all. best kissing scene I've ever seen.

to conclude, i just have to say this: watch the movie. the ending might be a little confusing but i just love how artistic the scenes are. not recommended for boys though. i don't think u guys will get it.

nite world

MSD

about posting again

hi world, it's been a long time...

I miss writing, though I'm not really good at it. I've been wanting to post some things, but i haven't got the time...

I'm currently doing an internship in a public accountant firm, due to my college's requirement... if things go well i might be holding a title this year! *crossfinger*

ah, so I'm in Gresik right now, somewhere in East Java. the firm send me here to do some auditing with a couple of seniors. it's been 8 days now... and I'm waiting for the homecoming day to come sooner. i miss home. I've never been away alone, to a foreign city with no family at all.. and my house is so loud, i cant seem to adapt to the quiet hotel room. but i guess this count as growing up right?

the job is... hard. not hard to do, but hard to get through. it requires a steady state of mind, the non-procrastinating one. the one who understand it may love it so much so it will seem easy, but then again for newbies like me it's an amazing thing. how can u sleep just 3-5 hours max, and sit in front of ur laptop every day? my senior even sleeps with his laptop. that's insane. auditing is a robot job. -__-

i got a lot of things goin on now... i have to think about the topic of my report, when I'm absolutely clueless about everything.

sometimes i wanna cry. i don't want to grow up.

this 19 yo girl is not suitable for this world.

or maybe she is, but she didn't know it yet?

hope for the best, then.

Regards

MSD

about self-awakening

Hi guys! It's been a while since i posted.

Due to my long-long-long holiday, i actually have too much free time, so i'm gonna start posting more often

recently i had some sort of self-awakening, about my self, what i really want in life
i got tired of people telling me who i am. i know it's cliche but what can i say? it's true.
i just got off from a serious relationship. though i can't really say got off, since he still hovering around me.
i think i'm just afraid, u know, for starting a whole new beginning consisting only myself.
but come on, every one can do it, why can't I?

so i started seeing things differently.
i realize some things about him that just not that good, it's common around boys.
i realize some of the thoughts he shared with me just didn't get along with mine
i realize, i don't need his judgment. i have my mom and my brother to nag me.

so i called that a self-awakening. haha maybe it's a bit shallow but my deepest thought stays in my head :)

happy holiday <;)